Taku Sakaushi

10年前に、オフクロが逝き大泉の家を整理して兄貴家族と同居する家を作り暮らし始めた。義姉の献身的なサポート無くして１０年生きることはなかっただろう。毎年正月オフクロの墓に行きフグを食べた。ブログに残る正月の写真である。

Ten years ago, Our mother passed away and father cleared house in Oizumi to create a house to live with his brother’s family and started living. He wouldn’t have lived for 10 years without the devoted support of my sister-in-law. Every New Year, we went to the tomb of mother and ate blowfish. This is a New Year’s photos that remains on my blog.

成績

兄貴が親父の持ち物は本以外は捨てるけどいい？と聞くのでいいよと答えたが、ペンはたくさん持っていたことを思い出した。僕はペリカン、配偶者と娘はモンブランを形見にもらった。これは書き良い。My brother asked me if it was OK to throw away all my dad’s possessions except for his books. I said yes, but I remembered that he had a lot of pens. I got a Pelikan, my spouse and daughter got a Mont Blanc as a memento. It’s very smoothe to

write with.

親父の背中 (11)

親父は社会主義協会の代表を務めていた８０歳の時に最初の単著を著した。内容は唯物弁証法から資本論をおさらいして新自由主義論を経てなぜ社会党が崩壊したのかを総括し日本の展望を語るものである。版型は小さいが300頁の著作である。その頃親父は図書館に通い膨大なノートをとっていた。マルクスとまるで同じ方法である。あとがきを読むと真夏の２ヶ月で書き上げたとある。僕は２年かけて一冊書くのになんと早いことかと驚かされる。さらにその６年後に次の単著を著している。これもエッセイではなく理論書である。僕は７５まで働こうと思ったが８５までは行けるかもしれない。

My father wrote his first book at the age of 80 when he was president of the Socialist Society. It　begins with a review of the material dialectic, the theory of capitalism, the idea of neoliberalism, the reasons for the collapse of the Socialist Party, and Japan’s prospects. It was a small book, but it was 300 pages long. At that time, my father went to the library every day and took a lot of notes. He used the same method as Marx. The postscript says that he wrote the book in two months in the middle of summer. I was amazed at how quickly he could write a book. I wrote my book in two years. Six years later, he wrote his next book. It was also not an essay but a theory. I thought I would work until 75, but I think I might make it to 85.

旧制弘前高校スキー部だった親父は毎年冬春家族をスキーに連れて行った。スキー場では放任で、ある時は谷に落ちて動けなくなり助けられたのは夕刻だった。しかし子供はみるみる上手くなるもので、6年生で一級に受かったのには皆驚いた。

My father, who was a former member of  Hirosaki High School ski club, took his family to ski every winter and spring. I usually was left alone at the ski resort, and at one point I fell into a valley and got stuck and was saved in the evening. However, the children got better quickly and we were surprised that I passed the first grade of ski licensing examination when I was in the sixth grade.of elementary school.

親父は我々に対してはもとより孫にも特別な態度は取らなかった。自分が仕事をしている時は部屋に孫が遊びに行っても無視である。孫は適当に親父の部屋でぶらぶらして部屋を出ようとすると「おー」とか声をかけてくるらしい。僕の娘は意を決して社会主義は日本では成立しないだろうと喧嘩をふっかけたら喜んで議論したらしい。

My father did not have a particular attitude towards his grandchildren or us. When he was working, he would ignore his grandchildren when they went to his room to play. The grandchildren would hang out in his room, and when they were about to leave, he would say “Oh” to them. My daughter had the nerve to argue with him that socialism would not work in Japan, and he was happy to oblige.

兄貴が弔辞で親父にはよく平手打ちを食らい壁に鮮血が飛び散ったと言っていた。僕の記憶では、兄貴は机の上に立たされて６０センチくらいの竹の物差しで向こうずねをひっぱたかれていた。風呂場に追い込まれてぶん殴られて鼻血がタイルに飛び散っていた。

In his eulogy, my brother said that my father slapped him and spattered fresh blood on the wall. I remember him standing on a desk and hit on his shin with a six-foot bamboo ruler. He was driven into the bathroom and beaten so severely that his nose bled all over the tiles.

葬儀に親父の写真をかき集めて並べた。その中でこの写真が目を惹いた。親父が笑う顔を見たことは滅多にない。記憶にない。葬儀でこれは珍しい写真だねと兄貴と話し合った。At the funeral, We gathered up all the photos of my father and laid them out. Among them, this one caught my eye. I had rarely seen my father smile. I don’t remember it. At the funeral, my brother and I talked about how rare a picture this was.

親父は1998年から2016年まで社会主義協会（社会党の理論研究集団）の代表を務めていた。すでにベルリンの壁は崩壊した後にどういう気持ちでこの仕事をしていたのだろうかと思ったが、彼にとっては何処吹く風。最後まで労働者の地位向上に向けて戦っていた。葬儀では兄貴も「親父は一生信念で生きていた」と言ったがそうだと思う。社会に吠えるこの顔が僕らの中では最も親父らしい顔である。とてつもなく怖い人だった。
My dad was the Socialist Association head (the theoretical research group of the Socialist Party) from 1998 to 2016. I wondered how he felt about this job after the Berlin Wall had already fallen, but for him, it was nothing. In the end, he was fighting for the improvement of the status of workers. At his funeral, my brother said that my father lived his whole life by his convictions, and I think he was right. This face, barking at society, is the most fatherly face of us all. He was a tremendously scary man.